The Start

I guess I should begin with the cold hard (well slightly wobbly) facts. 

My measurements (gulp):
         Height - 5ft 6 inches tall
         Age - 43 years
         Weight - 175 lbs
          Fitness Level - non existent ( have joined a dragon boat team but i am pretty sure I am letting them all down)

Most of my life I have "struggled" with my weight. When I was younger I could gain and lose 5 lbs in a matter of days. It was pretty weird. I have always been thin - ish. The thing is I have always been hungry. I can eat and eat and eat. When I was a little girl I was naturally very skinny. All long legs and awkward. I was always hungry - did I mention that. But it didn't matter what I ate it never made a difference - I was still a stick figure. Then, over time things changed. Puberty I suppose. I had all that great body shame we put ourselves through. I ate sporadically. Maybe not anorexic but definitely not healthy. Days without eating. Other days I binged. But all along I have always been hungry. ALL THE TIME. Ridiculous. 

Obviously my metabolism has caught up with me over time. Weight goes on and it does not come off now. I have always struggled to be fit but with the whole becoming a mom thing I just can't do it any more. I need to get back on my bike but I am dreading it. Getting in shape sucks. Maybe some people don't think so but I do. It hurts. It is annoying. Boring. Time consuming. And it takes so much effort and energy. Ugh!

Okay, I am done my whining!  I need to get back to a sane weight again. 135-140 lbs. I am no spring chicken and I want to be here for a while for the little guy.... And fit into clothing again. So how shall I do it. Well, I have done lots of things in the past of course. I really can't bear counting calories and weighing food and such. I need something more reasonable. Less militant. Maybe I am being silly. At a time when my body is slowing down I somehow think I can get back in shape while doing less (and drinking wine). This  plan does not sound promising. Well, I guess this is an experiment. We shall see what happens. And if my body decides to cooperate.

Next post I will fill you in on the plan. (Gulp!)