People often say that if you just relax and listen to your body and stop worrying about what you eat all the time things will balance themselves out and you will loose weight and get to your ideal size. Don't stress!
They also say this about potty training. If you have tried everything and that clever little one still won't use the potty then back-off. Give him time to sort it out himself. Don't stress.
Well these people are wrong.
I relaxed and let my body sort itself out and guess what. It turns out that my body is just as messed up as my brain. It wants to eat constantly. That makes it very happy...well... except my knees, they don't like lugging all that extra blubber around. But my bum and all the rest of me is very happy to get bigger and bigger. My chin(s) is beside itself with glee. Yup, my body has been so happy that I relaxed and let it do whatever it wanted. It never once sent out an "I'm full" signal. Nope. It just kept saying "feed me", "feed me now". So I did in the hope that this magical thing would happen that people speak of. It never did and I am pretty sure it never will.
I don't know what will happen with the potty training. I am still doing all this relaxing and just letting it go stuff ...and so is he... right into his diaper. He shows no sign that he will ever sit on a toilet. I assume at some point his brain will kick in that pooping in your pants is gross but, hey, you never know. All those people that say he won't go to university in a diaper could be wrong. We shall see.... That experiment continues. Mostly because I have no idea what else to do. He is three and a half by the way....
So the body self regulation experiment is over. The hypothesis was disproved. My body has no balance. No "off switch". The tank is never ever full. I cannot get enough of a good thing etc. My brain has to turn back on, assess the damage and get back in the driver seat. It totally sucks.
Here we go again. My body is so sad. It was having such a good time.
The damage:
- 180 lbs (yikes)
I need to lose about 40 lbs. Ugh! How am I going to do that?!
The old fashioned way - try and try and try again. I am counting calories. I am also trying to cut back/out carbs. Definitely the bad carbs. I never really eat those anyway. I also need to cut out all sugar. That is a hard one. I really do not eat a lot of sugar. The two main sources though are the two main sources I hate to lose the most. Wine and Chocolate. More often than not the two go hand in hand and at the worst time of the day. Just before bed. Sooooo bad. I know. But soooo good.
I have already made some positive changes. My partner and I have a hard time getting home from work and getting dinner together while dealing with the never ending wants and needs of our little guy before sending him off to bed. We often fail and end up ordering take-out or eating super late at night. (Thus the 180lbs...) I have started using a local company that helps you to prepare a bunch of meals ahead of time. I go for a one hour session every couple of weeks and come home with about two weeks worth of pre made dinners that just require cooking. They do all the shopping, prep work, cleaning up and, most important, thinking. It is actually really great. I assemble the meals in their facility during the one hour session which is actually ideal because then I can tweak the recipes a little to suite our tastes (I can't eat onions so I just don't add them). It is easy and so convenient. The food is really delicious and pretty nutritious. Just the sort of thing I need to get this whole thing to work. And best of all they have worked out all the nutritional information for each of the recipes so I can easily monitor the calories I am taking in. Yeah.
A few more good little tricks like this and I will be well on my way to making a permanent change to my life that will make this whole thing easier. Which is really all I want. I just want to be fit and healthy and happy and not exhausted from the effort of being that way. I want to do other things with my day than constantly worrying about losing weight after all.
Sorry body, you failed the test. Brain - it is up to you now. I know you can do it. I think....
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